8 Sept noon - wow

So many things are happening. Danny is not around today.
but its all good.
slowly i feel bit more peace working here. not sure if its cos diana is not around. she does have a knack of making people stressed. hehe
i really have to learn to tune out once she starts talking.
honestly i have more peace talking to Danny than diana, although some things that Danny does annoys me.

was nice that Danny said i can take a few days off once everything is sorted.
and although i want to change my job, it is mainly cos of the pay. so hopefully God gives me the pecae to stay as well as provides me with the money that i need.

i am also glad that my head is now clear and there is nothing else between me and andrew (not like there was any in the first place) but on my part, i was not sure what those emotions were. was glad i had the attention. but having turned back to focus on God, i dun feel those raging emotions anymore and can take him like a brother. :)
i'm so glad!

regarding toulia, cant say much about my emotions. its always the cause of problems. i believe that he currently hates me to the core although he denies it. and i cant see in my naked human eye how anything can be restored and reconciled. but God is THE Almighty One, the alpha & the Omega right. so if He says it'll work, why would i say otherwise.

so not going to think about it anymore. I'm sure there are more things for me to do right now. At least i have quite abit of activity going on for the next couple of weeks.

definitely need to sort my taxes out. work out my hours and all. my current tax account is not very helpful (in a way) but at least it has taught me what i need to look out for and what i need to do. :) so that's good.

also, have a car to buy. it would be great to have a car on the weekend. :D
with michelle coming to visit, it would really be nice. a break from everything. and obviously would love to be able to take a break from everything once civ v & nba goes live. so hopefully i can have my break in oct.

and of cos there is the moving of the house. believing for 2 Oct move. that saves me 2 weeks rent. :) but otherwise, God knows the best dates.

i guess its kinda palming things off to God, but if it takes a load off me, why not. and for now, i really do not want to have anything else to think at this point in time.

i know i still love toulia. and i miss him heaps. i wonder whether he misses me and thinks about me too? if he remembers the good times? but that is not getting me anywhere, so i am packing it in a box and giving that box to God. :)

if God gives it back to me, it's all good. means i have a present to open. if He doesnt then He'll exchange it for another box. :D which is also good.

regardless, i'll get to have my dreams come true.

God is weird. He is mysterious and His ways are beyond my understanding.

Thank goodness He loves me! so I can love Him too. I am really grateful for all that He has done for me in my life!